I hadn't played bass but once since I returned to Atl from Tampa back in Apr. Hadn't picked it up since the Last Opaq Face show in Feb when I was here for 4 days.

So Now I have a reason. I still do Liquid Image crap and am not ready to bring it to the masses. However, I'm learning tunes for a est. band here in Atl. with chicks in it. Kinda cool. Met with them on Monday had drinks and seem pretty cool.

At anyrate, the point of this post was my fingers are now bleeding. Way to keep up with my bass playing Mike!

Who's doing what tonight I need something to do.

Slip inside the eye of your mind
Don't you know you might find
A better place to play
You said that you'd never been
But all the things that you've seen
Will slowly fade away

So I start a revolution from my bed
'Cause you said the Brains I had went to my head
Step outside the summertime's in bloom
Stand up beside the fireplace
Take that look from off your face
You ain't ever gonna burn my heart out .....................AGAIN

So Sally can wait, she knows it's too late as we're walking on by
Her soul slides away, but don't look back in anger
I heard you say

Take me to the place where you go
Where nobody knows, if it's night or day.
Please don't put your life in the hands
Of a Rock 'n Roll band
Who'll throw it all away

Say say my playmate wont you lay hands on me mirror my malady transfer my tragedy

Got a curse i cannot lift shines when the sunset shifts when the moon is round and full gotta bust that box gotta gut that fish My mind's aflame We could jet in a stolen car but i bet we wouldnt get too far before the transformation takes
and bloodlust tanks and crave gets slaked My mind has changed my bodys frame but god i like it my hearts aflame my bodys strained but god i like it My mind has changed my bodys frame but god i like it Charge me your day rate ill turn you out in kind when the moon is round and full gonna teach you tricks that'll blow your
mongrel mind baby doll i recognize

you're a hideous thing inside
if ever there were a lucky kind it's
you you you you

I know its strange another way to get to know you you'll never know unless we go so let me show you i know its strange another way to get to know you
we've got till noon here comes the moon so let it show you show you now

Dream me oh dreamer down to the floor open my hands and let them weave onto yours
Feel me, completer down to my core open my heart and let it bleed onto yours feeding on fever down all fours show you what all that howl is for Hey hey my playmate let me lay waste to thee burned down their hanging trees it's hot here hot here hot here hot here

Got a curse we cannot lift shines when the sunshine shifts there's a cure comes with a kiss the bite that binds the gift that gives now that we got gone for good
writhing under your riding hood tell your gra'ma and your mama too
it's true we're howling forever

--------------I touched her thigh and death smiled at me




thats all you figure it out.

404): I cant believe you went over there and fucked her last night after everything you said
(770): she invited me over to play the wii, it's not like i intended to
(404): You KNEW her power was out...

Tell her she's as useless as a condom.
I gave her the chance to be interesting and she failed. So then I gave her a chance to be slutty and she failed at that too.
(770): cant believe you said you would bone perez hilton
(1-770): i said paris hilton
(770): thats even worse


He saved me in his phone as Easy Jen. Should I be offended?
(770): I wouldn't worry about it. He has me as "Sex Puppet."

Damn I can't remmbre the last tome I had sobr sex
(404): Um. I believe with my boyfriend, slut
(770): Fuck. Wron person. But yea

I need a job. Does anyone have any leads or know who's hiring. Right of the bat, It doesn't really matter what it is. At this point I'm looking for just about anything I can get. Thanx`

I got my life back I don't hurt anymore....nor do I care about the hurt. (this doesn't include my rib cage I broke sunday night) If I 've ever felt......I shut the door. It took along time and took someone to cross pathes with me that helped me do it. Actually a few. Thankyou Betho, You 'll never know. You get it. And you showed up when I needed it. A stranger at the time,....I'm very happy and it's been along time. I'm still in the same standing as far as job crap. Then again I wouldn't know what that feels like anymore.

I'm sure I'll bitch about Karla from time to time, but it's null and void. Always is and will be a piece of me so...like a arm , a leg, or a best friend (that she was). It will always be a part of me cuz that it was.

Anyhow, Been spending some time with someone I've had a thing for. Maybe, it's fair to say awhile. Fuck fair. Yeah, I wanted to get to know them for awhile. People, places, and time work the way they do.
Strange how you cross pathes and a bit later and there you are. It kinda blows my mind. We are loaded and dangerous. Good thing a bad thing.....doesn't matter watch out ......cuz, it's going to get wild.

I love you will always miss you, I finally learned how to fly again.


When you were young
Was there a time called one day
You would know all there was to know
If you survive
All of those guys around you
You carry thier books they carried your mind
Make believe
That nothing is wrong
Make believe
Your going somewhere
Live your dream
So take it slow
And if you lose your way
Remember the moment you began
Fall back on your word
Heaven forbid your entry
And miner guilt complex dissolves
Make believe nothing is wrong
Make believe youve got something to say
Live your dream
(never stop)
And nothing can matter to this man
Wish away all I know
Heaven is calling out
The easiest excess to the crowd
I came for the house and the children
I let it all slip throw my hands
I feel like a weight has been lifted
Nothing can matter to this man
I came for the car and the vacuum
Spinning the wheels into the void
I feel like my ship it has come in
But it was a joke theres nothing aboard

There's no fair fights: kinda sums it up


Congratulations you have won
You fought off calling me for a whole year to prove your point
But Im tired of shouting out in the night
My pride is packed away and I
I apologize for being cruel when I should have been kind
I apologize, well be so happy together tonight
You found a garter belt on my nose
I warned ya


My similar similarities lose touch when I drink to much
But bye bye I kiss the bottle goodbye
Forever
I know its made a fool of my
I try to reconcile

Yup, I broke, cracked , hurt My rib (mabye 2) Last night. way to go Mike!

Yup, I broke, cracked , hurt My rib (mabye 2) Last night. way to go Mike!

Have had a great interesting weekend so for. Got the NIN show tomorrow. I'm more excited about seeing Jane's Addiction then the other bands. Had to go into time out tonight cuz when I do it I do it well....long hard and fast. So ......
At anyrate looking forward to spending more time with someone i'm really into.
Kinda wierd that I'm sleeping by myself tonight, but it's all good.


Fucking Finally, I've moved on.....a year later. But believe you me I've seen where or what other's moved on too. All, I know is you reach far......maybe to far....I know I got a hot piece of ass on my arm, can't say to much for you.



Spikey Mike has a smile thank christ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

: DUDE. I'm missing my big toenail. My bed has blood all over it. WHAT DID WE DO LAST NIGHT?
: I don't know, but I chipped my tooth and I'm wearing different underwear.

:My farts woke her up so I pretended to be keep sleeping.

(: I'm at a bar that has girls so awful looking even you would not have sex with them.
: Well... I doubt that.

: 3.50 mugs at the bar.
): Nah man, im with an ugly chick. Im waiting til everyone's drunk enough tonight, they don't notice.
: How ugly, and does she have friends?


:I don't do stupid things anymore. I do stupid people.

:May have just accidentally purchased an iphone on Kate's credit card. This has potential to be bad.


(dude. I'm so drunk.
(): pete, this is bryce's mom
I can't wait to have my cock in your ass
: pete, this is still bryce's mom

You'll put your fingers inside me but you won't be my FB friend?

Little angelfuck
Its a shame that luck is the only thing
Did you like the fun
Did you like the times
that I promised you

Open wounds on your brow
Little angel in red
She isnt loving you anymore

Little angelfuck
I see you going down on a bone of love
Little angelfuck
Size for everyone

Let those bastards believe
Dry your eyes and well leave
She isnt loving you anymore


_________________________________________________________________________

change,
everything you are
and everything you were
your number has been called
fights, battles have begun
revenge will surely come
your hard times are ahead

best,
you've got to be the best
you've got to change the world
and you use this chance to be heard
your time is now

So i'm trying to figure out who is going to the NIN show sunday. Also, are you doing lawn or seats and what did you pay for your tix?

hey, fucktard I think you suck


that's all now back to your regular scheduled life

write about last night later. GK really, pissed the fuck out of me. Show was cool.

Achtung: For some reason it just hit me today. I don't really hurt anymore ( I always will I lost my Best friend). I miss things, but I don't hurt as much nor care. Phantom feeling. like when you lose a body part. Maybe it was the few conversations this week. Funny how, you say something on how you feel and then it get's put back in your face. a year later. Now you understand. See where I was coming from? fan club (lol) or not. Wow....I can say it took awhile. Rebirth, decay, sad, happy, done, ready to begin, I'm a piece of work, art, chaos, chaos theory, I'M PRETTY, pretty vacant, most of all I'm human and in the circuts am designed to make mistakes. I admit. Because humans don't have an instruction book. I think I'm going to be in a better place. Maybe the meds helped. maybe not. You people tell me. I dunno. Glad that Someone reached out to me and get's it. You'll never know how much that few line meant to me. You know who you are.

when I was young
I was so full of fear
I hid behind anger, held back the tears
It was me against the world
I was sure that I'd win
But the world fought back, punished me for my sins
I felt so alone
So insecure
I blamed you instead, made sure I was heard
And they tried to warn me
Of my evil ways
But I wouldn't hear what they had to say
I was wrong
Self destruction's got me again
I was wrong
I realize now that I was wrong

And I think about my loves
Well, I've had a few
Well, I'm sorry that I hurt them
Did I hurt you too?
I took what I wanted
Put my heart on the shelf
But how can you love me when you don't love yourself?
It was me against the world
I was sure that I'd win
The world fought back, punished me for my sins
And they tried to warn me
Of my evil ways
But I couldn't hear what they had to say
I was wrong
Self destruction's got me again
I grew up fast
And I grew up hard
Something was wrong from the very start
I was fighting everybody
I was fighting everything
But the only one that I hurt was me
I got society's blood running down my face
Somebody help me get outta this place
How could someone's bad luck last so long?






I'm glad I went out this weekend. Alot of people judge me based on situations. Based on my dia-tribes on this Bullshit called Live-journal. I think in a sense I changed peoples thoughts about me and maybe I thought, but was re-routed by what I thought their process was. At anyrate,


Through The black hole and revelations


I for the first time in a year think I'm going to be ok.....at least this summer.

Hey we are cool. We are broke. Therefore, enter PBR and it's as good as gold . And the spokes -people for PBR. We Are Cool We are famous so kill your television!

sneak peak from the shoot. Don't ask no questions and you get no lies! I'm a northern redneck...ok kinda!









just wait till the actuall ones from the camera come out

as seen on tv yo!